What is going on it seems as if my body is saying NO you are not allowed to lose weight!

Well maybe I need to start at the beginning! 12 months ago I was actually 110kg and I thought that maybe I could lose 40 kg by the time I was 40 which was in 10 months!  A little unrealistic when I look back but points for aiming high, I didn’t make it.  I managed to lose 12 kg by my birthday which was in September but I lost most of it by May and then I seemed to get stuck.  I knew by then my goal was unrealistic so I kind of lost interest.  Fast forward to this and when I got on the scales I was as you know 101.5 kg and that scared me to realize that I struggled to get the weight off and in a flash it could all be back on!

When I go look back and all the times I have weighed myself in the last 10 years I haven’t been under 98 kg since 2008!   It is almost like this is my set point!  So to be less than 98kg is BIG!

What every weight lost doctor (well everyone I’ve seen) will tell you if you have a lot of weight to lose that the first bit comes off the easiest so for me that first 10kg but because my body has been on a low calorie diet for a yrs I think it has decided that it needs to hang on to every last bit of fat that it can!

When I think about things though I am at 98.4 kg today and that means a total weight loss of 3.1kg in 25 days less than a month and if I was to lose 3 kg a month that is pretty good going so maybe I should be so hard on myself.  I think the weigh yourself every day is a little mind game everyday….For example last night I just had to have some chips and it was late like 10pm and I ate 160gms of this vegi chip things so not totally unhealthy but not good then today I am 500gms lighter go figure.

I think the key is even when I feel like it tough and I have something I shouldn’t is to stop and get back on track because this is for life for me I never want to be over 100kg again but I don’t even want to be anywhere in the 80’s or 90’s so a lot of work to go but I will get there and when I do I am going to do my hardest to stay there this time!

Jo